Alone by Cyn Balog

Happy Halloween! It’s the most wonderful time of the year {sorry, Andy Williams, you were singing about the wrong holiday}, and before I lose myself in scary movies and bite sized candy, I wanted to share this book because it’s perfect to read in an empty house, with the lights turned low, and the windows all open.


Title: Alone {278 pgs.}

Genre: YA Thriler/Mystery

Publication Date: November 7, 2017


This must-read for lovers of Stephen King’s The Shining will leave readers breathless as Seda and her family find themselves at the mercy of a murderer in an isolated and snowbound hotel.

When her mom inherits an old, crumbling mansion, Seda’s almost excited to spend the summer there. The grounds are beautiful and it’s fun to explore the sprawling house with its creepy rooms and secret passages. Except now her mom wants to renovate, rather than sell the estate—which means they’re not going back to the city…or Seda’s friends and school.

As the days grow shorter, Seda is filled with dread. They’re about to be cut off from the outside world, and she’s not sure she can handle the solitude or the darkness it brings out in her.

Then a group of teens get stranded near the mansion during a blizzard. Seda has no choice but to offer them shelter, even though she knows danger lurks in the dilapidated mansion—and in herself. And as the snow continues to fall, what Seda fears most is about to become her reality…

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I was hoping to hold onto this book until it was closer to Halloween, but I ended up devouring it in about two days, way before Halloween. With a story so creepy and mysterious, I had to know what was going to happen. Even better, about halfway through, I got all cocky and confident and told myself that I knew the ending already, and…I didn’t. I didn’t at all.

Seda is not having a very good time living in the mountains in an old murder mystery hotel. But once her mom gets these ideas in her head, there’s no talking her out of it, so Seda has to make the best of it for herself and her four younger siblings. Maybe if she had a twin like her siblings, a twin that was real, a twin that wasn’t in her head telling her to do terrible things.

Then a group of teenagers stumble into Seda’s life, and everything she knows is turned upside down by a friendly game that Seda’s mother creates to make everyone forget that they’re snowed in and can’t leave the house for any reason whatsoever. You know, one of those relaxing games of catching a murderer. A fake one, of course.

Well, it had been fake, at least, until the teenagers start popping up in the strangest places, dead and mutilated.

Seda is trying to keep everyone safe while also trying to figure out if she had a hand in any of these murders. Well, not Seda exactly, but Sawyer, her twin that never really left, her twin that whispers constantly in her ear, her twin that tells her that maybe doing bad things could be fun.

I told you that this was a book for the holidays.

What I loved most about Alone was the way Cyn Balog wrote it, how she sucked you into the story and made you feel the loneliness pervading through the old house. You feel the walls closing in on you. You begin to understand Seda in a way that you might not want to, and then comes the moment when you put yourself inside the house. You wonder, would I have done the same thing? The answer is going to scare you no matter what, and that is the mark of fantastic writing. Cyn Balog is a master at creating this kind of atmosphere, and her other books are very much the same way, but Alone stands by itself as the creepiest and most jaw-dropping that I’ve read from her. From anyone, for quite some time, to be honest.

Don’t believe me that this book is that good? First of all, you really should. I don’t lie about books. That’s rude. And second, here’s something other amazing reviews for this book:

“Even careful readers will be caught off guard by twists and unexpected but divine surprises. This first-rate thriller delivers everything a thriller should, and adds more. With a wink and a nod to Stephen King’s The Shining, Balog provides a shocker for the young adult crowd.” –VOYA Magazine, VOYA Perfect 10 Review

“This is the perfect premise for a chilling tale, and Balog fills every inch with classic horror references, red herrings, and uncertain motivations. As Balog gradually builds tension and paranoia, she manipulates reader expectations to set up several possible endings, yet still manages to end with a shocker. This is fantastically creepy psychological horror.” Booklist

“A bloody, wonderfully creepy scare ride.” –Kirkus Reviews

In case you’re not sold on it yet {and who are we kidding, you’re already preordering it, I know you}, I’ve got a little teaser to get you started on your journey into Seda’s messed up life:

Sometimes I dream I am drowning.

Sometimes I dream of bloated faces, bobbing on the surface of misty waters.

And then I wake up, often screaming, heart racing, hands clenching fistfuls of my sheets.

I’m in my bed at the top of Bug House. The murky daylight casts dull prisms from my snow globes onto the attic floor. My mom started collecting those pretty winter scenes for me when I was a baby. I gaze at them, lined neatly on the shelf in front of my window. My first order of business every day is hoping they’ll give me a trace of the joy they did when I was a kid.

But either they don’t work that way anymore, or I don’t.

Who am I kidding? It’s definitely me.

I’m insane. Batshit. Nuttier than a fruitcake. Of course, that’s not an official diagnosis. The official word from Dr. Batton, whose swank Copley Square office I visited only once when I was ten, was that I was bright and intelligent and a wonderful young person. He said it’s normal for kids to have imaginary playmates.

But it gets a little sketchy when that young person grows up, and her imaginary friend decides to move in and make himself comfortable.

Not that anyone knows about that. No, these days, I’m good about keeping up appearances.

My second order of business each day is hoping that he won’t leak into my head. That maybe I can go back to being a normal sixteen–year–old girl.

But he always comes.

He’s a part of me, after all. And he’s been coming more and more, invading my thoughts. Of course I’m here, stupid.

Sawyer. His voice in my mind is so loud that it drowns out the moaning and creaking of the walls around me.

“Seda, honey?” my mother calls cheerily. She shifts her weight on the bottom step, making the house creak more. “Up and at ’em, buckaroo!”

I force my brother’s taunts away and call down the spiral staircase, “I am up.” My short temper is because of him, but it ends up directed at her.

She doesn’t notice though. My mother has only one mood now: ecstatically happy. She says it’s the air up here, which always has her taking big, deep, monster breaths as if she’s trying to inhale the entire world into her lungs. But maybe it’s because this is her element; after all, she made a profession out of her love for all things horror. Or maybe she really is better off without my dad, as she always claims she is.

I hear her whistling “My Darlin’ Clementine” as her slippered feet happily scuffle off toward the kitchen. I put on the first clothing I find in my drawer—-sweatpants and my mom’s old Boston College sweatshirt—-then scrape my hair into a ponytail on the top of my head as I look around the room. Mannequin body parts and other macabre props are stored up here. It’s been my bedroom for only a month. I slept in the nursery with the A and Z twins when we first got here because they were afraid of ghosts and our creepy old house. But maybe they—-like Mom—-are getting used to this place?

The thought makes me shudder. I like my attic room because of the privacy. Plus, it’s the only room that isn’t ice cold, since all the heat rises up to me. But I don’t like much else about this old prison of a mansion.

One of the props, Silly Sally, is sitting in the rocker by the door as I leave. She’d be perfect for the ladies’ department at Macy’s if it weren’t for the gaping chest wound in her frilly pink blouse. “I hate you,” I tell her, batting at the other mannequin body parts descending from the rafters like some odd canopy. She smiles as if the feeling is mutual. I give her a kick on the way out.

Despite the morbid stories about this place, I don’t ever worry about ghosts. After all, I have Sawyer, and he is worse.

As I climb down the stairs, listening to the kids chattering in the nursery, I notice the money, accompanied by a slip of paper, on the banister’s square newel post. The car keys sit atop the pile. Before I can ask, Mom calls, “I need you to go to the store for us. OK, Seda, my little kumquat?”

I blink, startled, and it’s not because of the stupid nickname. I don’t have a license, just a learner’s permit. My mom had me driving all over the place when we first came here, but that was back then. Back when this was a simple two–week jaunt to get an old house she’d inherited ready for sale. There wasn’t another car in sight, so she figured, why not? She’s all about giving us kids experiences, about making sure we aren’t slaves to our iPhones, like so many of my friends back home. My mother’s always marching to her own drummer, general consensus be damned, usually to my horror. But back then, I had that thrilling, invincible, first–days–of–summer–vacation feeling that made anything seemed possible. Too bad that was short lived.

We’ve been nestled at Bug House like hermits for months. Well, that’s not totally true. Mom has made weekly trips down the mountain, alone, to get the mail and a gallon of milk and make phone calls to civilization. We were supposed to go back to Boston before school started, but that time came and went, and there’s no way we’re getting off this mountain before the first snow.


I peer out the window. The first dainty flakes are falling from the sky.

Snow. Oh God. Snow.

Creepy, right? And it only goes downhill from there.

Sourcebooks Fire is also super awesome {like super awesome}, so they sent along a raffle for you to win a copy of Alone, and I might just enter in myself, because I want to fill my house with this book. But in case I don’t win, here’s the link for all of you!

I’m not kidding when I say that this is one of my favorite scary books of 2017. It’s creepy and claustrophobic, and it keeps you guessing until the very last moment. So have a Halloween in November, and curl up somewhere dark and quiet, and have a great time scaring yourself. I sure did.




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